Letter from Darlu

Noha sent me this mail today -

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Po Kutti,

How are you darlu? I don't know why I'm writing this mail po. But I felt like doing so.

Po I miss you so much po. Every minute I'm away from you, my life feels worthless.

I cannot stop thinking about you and I don't know why. Everytime I remember your face,

I feel very sacred to have spent a moment with you in this life. I have never felt this free in all my life

with anyone po. When I'm with you, it feels like there is no worry ever in this world. It feels like I'm the happiest
person in this world. And that feeling of satisfaction blooms all around! I always picture Po who keeps working so hard

for buying a house, just to stay close to me. So focused and having so much love in your heart spreading out, in fact overflowing

that anyone who is getting that love needs to be really strong to take it all. I'm flooded with your love po. This is the first time in my life
where I've seen so much love coming back. The feeling of being in the company of someone who loves you back so much... I don't

have words to explain that po.

I feel very plagued with worries and more worries from people all around po. No one wants to understand what I feel about something.

They assume what I feel and do not care to ask what I feel inside. Sometimes I feel a very strong urge to break away from all these 

shackles and live my life the way I like. But I'm unable to do so. I remain silent and people think I have no worries. The only happiness

I have in this life is you. In your company, I be myself darlu. I be what I feel like I want to be. There are times when I feel that others 

should show some gratitude to whatever help I do to them. When they cut across me and behave so thankless, it breaks my heart so much 

and I feel why I should have even helped them. You are the only person in this world who has given me so much love and care back.

You are the only person whom I have no complaints about. You are the only person who has opened the door to immense joy and walked along with me holding my hand. You showed me what heaven is like, what real joy of being loved is. You're the only person who assured me that I can trust in others.

I do not know if I'm doing enough to secure a long lasting association with a beloved one who is a reflection of life full of happiness, warmth and well being.i can feel your every breath around me. I long for that lovely scent of yours which teleports me to a world of carefree happy life, which is full of vivid colors and laden with happy memories.

I cannot think of life without you.i cannot think of a day I do not speak to you or without a thought about you. If I ever do, it means my earthly body is squashed out of life completely. 

I love you po. You are the best thing that ever happened to me which made me feel happy, smile genuinely and feel what true life means.

Love,

Noha

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Of late I quarreled with noha when he his shared office things with me. My noha feels lonely, I am so pathetic.