I don't know if I am too childish or always sitting on edge to be affected with petty statements.
Been to stadium today and was to meet darling. I was missing darling since morning and cried when darling called me in the morning. Darling sent one sms in the eve that he was tearful during noon and was missing me.
Finally we met in the evening. And I became all child with my noha. I also told noha that I understand that we can not meet 24/7 as noha has parents to look after and I stay here all alone and can come any time. I also told noha that when ever noha is free I would come. I don't know but noha told me all of sudden and in a different tone that - "I would not sacrifice my family time for you". I had a lump on my throat and started shedding tear all of a sudden. I never expect darling to sacrifice any thing for me, any thing what so ever. I started saying "kotoo is alone I know kotoo is alone".
I started walking while crying and darling came running behind me. Darling said to me - you are me so I don't need to sacrifice my time. Darling kept my head close to his chest and tried soothing me. Darling asked me why I can not trust him. Darling asked me to sit and I wiped my tears. I asked darling if I am becoming a burden on him, to which darling was filled with tears and said I still don't trust his love. Darling said I am his life. I asked darling to not cry lest I should begin to cry again.
Then I asked darling that I want to record his voice and I did that. Now I would listen to this voice when ever I miss darling. I love you darling, more than my self...
Been to stadium today and was to meet darling. I was missing darling since morning and cried when darling called me in the morning. Darling sent one sms in the eve that he was tearful during noon and was missing me.
Finally we met in the evening. And I became all child with my noha. I also told noha that I understand that we can not meet 24/7 as noha has parents to look after and I stay here all alone and can come any time. I also told noha that when ever noha is free I would come. I don't know but noha told me all of sudden and in a different tone that - "I would not sacrifice my family time for you". I had a lump on my throat and started shedding tear all of a sudden. I never expect darling to sacrifice any thing for me, any thing what so ever. I started saying "kotoo is alone I know kotoo is alone".
I started walking while crying and darling came running behind me. Darling said to me - you are me so I don't need to sacrifice my time. Darling kept my head close to his chest and tried soothing me. Darling asked me why I can not trust him. Darling asked me to sit and I wiped my tears. I asked darling if I am becoming a burden on him, to which darling was filled with tears and said I still don't trust his love. Darling said I am his life. I asked darling to not cry lest I should begin to cry again.
Then I asked darling that I want to record his voice and I did that. Now I would listen to this voice when ever I miss darling. I love you darling, more than my self...
